Friday, December 26, 2008

contessy christmas

I got two cookbooks for Christmas both by Ina Garten AKA Barefoot Contessa to add to my two other cookbooks also by the her highness of the hamptons. I also got these two frames from Target I'd been lusting after for a long time and some barefoot contessa soup recipe notecards that turned out to be just perfect to go into said frames. Couldn't have looked cuter if I'd planned it, which I didn't. Thanks Emily, Jill, Dan, & Matt, you know you guys are going to be the beneficiaries of the cooking anyway....

Sunday, December 21, 2008

this made me laugh

its sort of like lucy's psychology advice booth but brought into this decade... (and no that girl isn't paris hilton)

Monday, December 15, 2008

hoops

Usually one image inspires me when taking on a project. At first glance the image is just bam, ooh, simple yet, hmm, interesting. What is that? EMBROiDERY HOOPS. You're average run of the mill embroidery hoops you can get at Michael's or a sewing store. The ones in the picture are extra extra large and I was just too weirded out to buy something that could end up just looking stupid so I couldn't commit to anything more than the few I grabbed at Michael's. To spice it up, I added into the middle via fishing line a few of the jeweled ornaments I bought at Target and you know what, it looks pretty pretty darn good. Image at top is from Real Simple and image below, is my dining area.
The rest of my homey Christmas decorations are here: http://picasaweb.google.com/emailevy/OurChristmas08Decorations#

Sunday, December 14, 2008

purty blue and white

As I reviewed the latest images of things I'd been attracted to on the design blog circuit, I found myself noting that I gravitated a lot toward things that were blue, white, shiny, and silver. Most of our home is dominated by the color black since we both love it so much but our bedroom doesn't have any black in it. Its blue and white and silver.

When you're young and not rich it seems like you get the stuff that you can live with for the time being and then when you have moolah, you get the stuff to make you feel like a grown up. Our bedroom is a prime example. All of the furniture is the Malm stuff from Ikea. What I want, is an upholstered bed with mirrored side tables. Still I'm fairly happy with our bedroom, its the room in the apartment that makes me feel soothed and I think its because of the colors. So here is a little page of things that inspire me to dream of blue and a few images of things that are mine that wake me up (the Jonathan Adler umbrella, the diamond vase, pencils, bedside carafe, and frame with picture of my dream closet).

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

marley was dead: to begin with

This is pretty square honey, Matt said as the high school girl carolers dressed as girls from the Charles Dickens era sang Jingle Bells. Square was one word for it, awkward was another. It'd be one thing if the carolers were off to the side singing and we could just watch them in passing but they were at the front of the room and you just had to sit there and listen. They kept going too, song after song and I'd try to just enjoy it but I was too uncomfortable. By that time, the room had been filled up with kids, maybe some teens that were friends of the carolers, middle aged moms & dads, grandparents, and us.

Was it a mistake to have come, to have dragged poor Matt to the library to watch a reading of Charles Dickens' Christmas Carol?

Finally, the carolers were done. They bowed. Everyone clapped. Again. Like they had after every song. And now the reading...

Up to the podium came a man dressed in another era appropriate costume with a black top hat. He gave us a quick intro of these readings, how Charles Dickens himself would do them every Christmas around town and wouldn't that have been something, to see the man who created these characters provide the voices. The man got into character and began reading a classic and for the next hour, I sat there, happily, patiently. I've seen about four versions of The Christmas Carol told and I own three of them but hearing the words of Charles Dickens himself describe Jacob Marley's transparent body made it I dunno, magical. The man would do the voices for all the characters and had a fake British accent as the narrator the whole time. I can't say I've ever heard someone read such a lengthy story, it felt so old, harking back to a time when people would do this sort of thing all the time with a lack of computers and DVDs, they would read aloud to each other, experience a world in words together.

After the reading, we were given wassail & cookies and people chatted happily about the experience. And recalling the telling of tiny Tim when he makes mention of who made lame men walk I shed another little tear, words are powerful things and it was nice to be reminded of that.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

decking the halls with care

Ah the season has finally arrived. Time to use the ideas I've stolen from Martha Stewart, Real Simple, Domino, Blueprint (RIP), and apply them to the holiday decorating scheme at home. This year its taken me almost the full weekend to prune away at the decorations because I don't want to overload the place, subtlety is best.

The image is from our bedroom, on top of the dresser which is my favorite arrangement in our bedroom usually and this time its no exception. I've always thought all white trees were especially beautiful and so when I saw this little one on sale for $3.99 I grabbed it. Then I bought the ornaments for it and it is such a pretty picture, sitting on top of the dresser in all its white glory.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

fall festivities prep

I am a free woman this week and all at once a captive of six families. Monday was my last day at work so for the rest of the week I can dedicate myself to the many mini-events we manage to squeeze out of one holiday. This is the trunk of our car, supplies a ready to begin some cookin', meat free.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

open house for emily

Yesterday I threw my sister in-law Emily a baby shower/open house for my future niece. I was well financed by my in-laws in the party throwing and we threw Emily a hit of a party. I got most of my ideas from the coconut of a brain of mine aided by that coconut Martha Stewart.com and various blogs in the cyber world. My two favorite things were the candy buffet & the cheese plate I made with little tags. Here's a few pictures from my phone that don't quite capture it but I'll have to wait to get Jill's pics.

Monday, November 17, 2008

s*bux & neverland

We have to get the motorhome driver off the clock. Well I still have to upload the files. Just do it from home. I'll just go to Starbucks and upload it from there.

Thus it began...

Heat, concrete, and a rash were most of my day. Not my rash, though don't think I wouldn't admit it if it were mine, someone I work with. And I was the lucky person chosen to handle the situation, to find him a clinic, to make sure he had paperwork, to make sure he was safe, to make sure he could work tomorrow. Inside the motorhome the air conditioner blasted and I never removed my apple sweater while in there. Outside on the giant concrete slab of our shoot, it was blazing hot and I was rarely outside for longer than a few minutes walking to and fro, walkie and phone in hand.

I wasn't even upset that I had to try to upload the files after we'd all been wrapped and most heading home because Matt wouldn't be home for a few more hours and even then the odds of my still being awake when he gets home at 11 with a 5:30am calltime were slim. I figured I'd not see him except hazily in between a goodnight and a goodmorning kiss. My being stuck at the valley's most hit-on able starbucks didn't really bother me. Nor did the testy man who admitted he'd had a bad day to the man he was being testy with. He apologized to me but the damage was done. You sir, are an ass. Your attempt to hit on that girl with the drums is pathetic, she's way too cute for you and definately too young. What bothered me was my bladder. I'd had a giant glass of iced green tea earlier and I had to go and we all know that when you have to go at a Starbucks, the person in the bathroom before you is obligated by law to be the slowest bathroom user this side of the Sierra Nevadas. I actually had enough time to rush back to the car to grab my reusable cup so I could grab some decaf heaven to drink on the long drive back home. Still no free bathroom. Doing the bathroom dance now. Ohmygoshohmygosh hurry UP! FINALLY! Ah, yocata... I rinse out my cup, wash my hands, head to the counter.

To the counter comes a bear of a barista. He's about 6'5 with a thick beard. Maybe about 23 or so. Lots of pins on his shirt. What can he get me. This, I point proudly to the p-touch tape on my cup that states my favorite coffee drink at S*bux. Whoa, did you get this cup at Pike Place? Yes, I had to make a pilgrimidge I declare, and this one is the original logo, the one where you can see her nips. Oh yes, I see, I gotta make a pilgrimidge myself, I'm trying to volunteer. Volunteer?

My bear friend tells me that no barista may call the store on Pike Place market their home store. Whoever is staffed there is a volunteer from a local area. He also told me that Howard Schultz, CEO of Starbucks only has one key for a Starbucks store and its the Pike Place one. I have an old magazine, I told him, where he tells us his favorite drink which is something fairly basic that neither of us can recall. A drip? A latte? I move on down to await my drink where two men attempt to make conversation. Well one tries with asking if my drink is the one on the counter and doesn't believe me when I insist it isn't, after all, I'm holding the lid of my coffee cup. Now I know how that guy out there felt when he made a scene. The other guy just looks at me like he knows me and is trying to place me, which makes me wonder if I know him so I try to place him. My coffee is up, a masterpiece truly, I may have to return to this store, if only to tell my bear friend that Schultz's favorite drink is a double shot non-fat latte, three quarters full.

I'm still in a good mood. My coffee is fantastic, life is great, and then I get on the 134. Red lights. Hmm... Should I? Well hello. Hi Alexa, what are you doing? Oh, just closing up at work, what are you doing? I'm on the 134 stuck in traffic with everyone else. Did you want to come on by? I was thinking about it, want me to pick you up?

Baja Fresh it is. Not that salsa, the medium one, yeah that's the ticket. Conversations of blogs, jobs, leaks, calltimes, fires, CDs, money, husbands, grown up stuff after all, we're only a few years away from thirty. How time has flown.

As I drive home thoughts of books and happy things flood my head, of Christmas, of the many events we have coming up, and JM Barrie and his wonderful stories of Peter Pan and Neverland and should I read some more of them.

The car in front of me is a minivan, there's a DVD playing overhead for the kids in the back, its Peter Pan. Hook is chasing little animated Peter around as Wendy and the lost boys cheer him on. I shed a little tear, its been a magical day in the land of grown ups.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

because i have an awesome mother in-law

After I'd spied with holiday eyes the fabulous Christmas loot at Target I made a mental list of the ornaments I wanted which I shared with my mother in-law. So she got them for me. She's the best!

I still have two more I want to get at Target. Matt thinks we have plenty... ha!

Sunday, November 9, 2008

this young house

As promised, the people who run a decorating blog I am a big fan of posted my dining area before and after on their site. Five peeps have already commented, check it out: http://www.thisyounghouse.com/2008/11/reader-redesign-switchin-the-kitchen/#comments

Saturday, November 8, 2008

target and the weird things i buy

Its all shimmery and pretty at Target down certain aisles because 'tis the season to buy pretty shiny things for that place you call home for that season we call The Holidays.

I love walking down these aisles even if I don't plan on buying anything, which is usually the case at Target stores, I don't PLAN anything, it just hops into the shopping basket and comes home, go figure. But during the holidays its even more apparent that I'm not buying what they're selling even though, gosh darn it its so freaking sparkly and pretty that it makes you want to get those spiky shiny ball things that look like icicles. I almost bought a $2 ornament too but with my determination not to start the Christmas thing until after Thanksgiving, the way it should be, I put the cute little thing back. Every year I buy a new ornament for the tree, it curbs many a desire to just go nuts buying crap willy nilly and makes the purchase more special.

However, during this shopping trip, I did purchase JR Watkins dish soap (I am a big fan of the JR Watkins line) and when I put it under the sink I realized that I have a weird ass kick for buying cleaning products and sponges. Yes, cleaning supplies and sponges. This past year I've bought a lot of cleaning supplies because I was getting rid of toxic ones and switching to more non-toxic earth friendly kinds but the sponge thing has no rational explanation. I stock up on them and buy one at least once a month. It could be attributed to a concern to get rid of nasty sponges that stock up on germs themselves but really, I have no explanation for my very odd desire to purchase sponges.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

wait a minute, he's black?

The issue of race, of Obama being a black president never came to my mind during this election. I can say that with all sincerity. I felt that it wasn't him but those around him that played the race card. To me he was the young Senator running for office, his youth made more of an impact in my mind. Of course I realized he was white and African but it was just so much easier to blur the color and listen to the man.

Now that he's won, the biggest thing about it was that he was the first black president. With images of Jesse Jackson crying, of black people all over the world celebrating, I thought wait a minute, this him being black thing WAS a big deal after all. And memories of our past wrongdoings were brought to mind, slavery, racial discrimination and now our future, where someone eloquently said a child born this year and growing up in his term will not know him as black, but as president.

I just wish it wasn't a big deal. I wish that a Mexican, a Chinese, a woman could run for office and not have their appearance become an issue. I wish they could run for office and the fact that their last name is Gonzalez or Li or the fact that they have boobs not factor in their qualificiations or be a topic for public debate. I'm sure in their minds they can't escape their own feelings of being an ethnic minority or gender minority and they have to deal with that on their own. That it would cease to be a big deal, that it would be a deal at all. We're not equal yet, not by a long shot.

And yes, I wrote in Ron Paul.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

awww heeeeeeeelllll no

My fantabulous former roommate and great friend Ambre called and informed me of where she was headed this lovely Sunday evening. Ambre always does interesting things and tonight was no exception, she was going to hear the Duggar family give a little talk about raising godly children because they know a thing or two. They have raised 17 and are pregnant with their 18th...

My grandmother on mom's side had 10, my grandmother on my father's side had 10. My mom had 5 so I am familiar with large families but this is ridonculous. They're not just raising kids, they're raising an army and running a hotel. Their kitchen is all industrial, they have three washing machines, I dare you to go on their site and look at a slideshow of their home and catch a glimpse of what its like to live there.

It'll make you want to tie your tubes: http://www.duggarfamily.com/

God bless 'em though, seriously...

looks like but isn't

YAY! Only 2 1/2 more days 'til the election. Soon it will all be over and begun...

Lately I want things that look like they're disposable but actually are made of hefty material to be kept forever or until you break it. Here's some of my favorites.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

show me the child

The Obama family has something that they have been careful to protect & is a huge asset: their daughters.

I'd never heard the little girls speak before until this accidental wandering into an access hollywood interview about Mrs. Obama's frugal fashion that aired before the Palin clothing fiasco became huge news. The girls are SO freaking cute. Articulate, funny, smart, and I loved watching their mother sit there and listen to every word they said as if it was the most important words to come out of a person's mouth and to listen to the little one defend mommy saying "Mommy is important."

The senator later said he thought the interview was a mistake and it gave the appearance of him using his family for a political advantage. It did not seem like a mistake to listen to those little girls because they seem like great little girls and that should reflect on the parenting. The senator said he wouldn't be allowing that to happen again and that's too bad. I hope to see more of these girls who I bet you anything will be future senators themselves in the future.

I have been very resistant of falling for the senator's bandwagon which made me that more impressed that in an accidental place you couldn't ignore the bright. And since McPalin has been nothing but a disappointment after her fierce acceptance speech, I am pretty sure I'm voting Ron Paul.

dining area after

Here's what our dining area looks like now. I made a little detailed before and after image to the right. It takes a few phases to get an area looking the way you like it and I'm sure the place will evolve over time.

I submitted it to a blog that shows a lot of before and afters and they said they'd post it in a few weeks, if they do, I'll post the link here.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Pier 1

Not usually my favorite shopping place in the world BUT since I'm throwing a baby shower for my sister in-law I thought I'd check out what they have in terms of party supply stuff.

I like how other decorating blogs (not that this is one) have these JPGs with a bunch of ideas on them of furniture or outfit ideas. Well, here's my list of stuff I want but don't need to buy with money I don't have:

The utensils, bowls, tray, and serving bowl would be for the party & the carafe, glasses, owls, and birdfeeder would be for the apt where Matt thinks we have plenty of stuff already. Psh, what do boys know?

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

legally!

I have a mother and father who were born in Mexico. My father came to the US in 1980, under the bed of a truck. My mother came to the US at the age of 16 with a student visa and decided to stay. In 1986 when Ronald Reagan granted amnesty to those residing in America before 1982, both of my parents became legal US residents and have remained that way.

'Til now.

My father has just taken his citizenship test. If he passes and takes the oath to be a US citizen, there will be a party, right after we all sob with pride and joy. He may have gotten here illegally, but he's given so much to this country he loves so much and is now giving him the ultimate gift, citizenship.

UPDATE: HE PASSED!!!!! Words cannot express how excited and proud we are of him. Daddy is a US Citizen now. USA! USA!

Thursday, October 16, 2008

the one

Fashion magazines always want you to spend money on stuff that you don't need. Actually, more than just the magazines, most of America is telling you to buy buy buy. Sometimes they offer some good advice when buying and this one bit of advice is very true.

If you're gonna spend money on something, make sure its on a good coat and good boots because they last for years.

I've been searching for a good coat for the colder climate and this is the one. I hope Matt can find a good coat there too, nothing hotter than a guy in a pea coat.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

multiples

I have a lot of dreams that involve multiples. Twins. Triplets. My mother is a twin so it might have something to do with that. I had this incredible dream about some triplets last year that I think about almost monthly because it was a dream like dreams I have before where I'm watching a TV movie, like the one that this crappy short story below seems like

Spring Daughter

This is the story about a father. The father looks a little like Garey Busey but with more heart and soul because he's a hero father. A single father of a daughter.

His wife either died or left him and he lived in a small town where the springs are like heaven. Each awakening flower growing from the formerly icy ground reaches for the sky with such vigor that you can almost hear the grunt of the soil as it allows the roots to separate themselves from it. It has no choice but to step aside and let the flower break through and that's just what this father does.

You can hear the doctor telling him that it will be five incisions. Two of those incisions will be removing limbs. You can see the equipment as it approaches near her head where it will remove something on her skin, another on the other side of her face, one below her right elbow removing her arm, and another removing her leg. In the waiting room there are people in military uniforms and one messed up looking father that doesn't know what to do. A doctor approaches him and lets him know that the operations went well. He can take her home in a few days.

It was her idea to sign up for the service. Only hers. The town was small and she couldn't see anyway out of it except to have Uncle Sam pay for her way out. She got to see some of the world as she was stationed. She sent home lots of pictures that her father shared with the neighbors and townspeople. He was proud of her, even though he wouldn't say it. Especially because he was scared of losing her the way he'd lost his wife. And all of his fears were realized when she was sent to Iraq.

It was a bomb, a shooting, chaos. In the chaos bullets killed two of her friends. She was hit like rain, everywhere they fell, pain shooting from places she'd forgotten she was the owner of. And now she wasn't.

She spent her time in bed. Through the fall, through the winter. Her father cooked and cleaned and tried to get her to talk but she wouldn't. When Spring came, it went unnoticed in their home. They shut the door to the town and the world.

But the world wouldn't hear it. The townspeople came and planted flowers and made a festival of flowers, right in their backyard. The father came out and finally, so did his daughter. Wrapped in a sheet that hid her missing limbs, she looked like a fairy and they dressed her so. They put flowers in her hair and flowers at her feet. She smiled for the first time and they remembered how beautiful she was, how much she looked like her mother. There was a pair of twins in the audience and though they were warned not to look at her, not to fall in love with her. They did just that.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

winner!

Ha! I won a sweepstakes. Hilarious. After my little post I won tickets to a screening and admission to Knott's Scary Farm. Happy Birthday to my husband, scary movie & scary farm.

Friday, October 3, 2008

sweepstakes

Today I did something that takes me to a special era of America: I entered a sweepstakes.

Nowadays when there's giveaways you punch in a code online or submit your email on a website if you want the chance to win a prize and most of the time the offers are "no purchase necessary". What this particular sweepstakes required was putting my information on a 3x5 index card and mailing it into the contest headquarters. I think they're banking on people not making the effort and I thought it was a funny concept so I mailed it in. There is 1,0000 prizes to be given which motivated me to enter even though the entrant pool will probably be astronomical.

The only times I've won a sweepstakes, which is impressive that its been multiple times, have been raffle entries. In high school I won something from a radio station that came to play at our school, in college at the NAB I won a Sony Clié and a book during a senior event. It could happen

Thursday, October 2, 2008

my emotional NPR

I really like National Public Radio. I turn it on to get my news fix and then insist on switching onto the iPod but their coverage of anything and everything is so good that I can't turn it off. Every other day, they'll have a story that will make me cry. There was one about a man who was deported to El Salvador and how a service had pupusas waiting for him at the airport. And whenever they do those specials about the families interviewing each other. MAN! You'd have to be some frosty hearted bastard to not shed a little tear.

And then...

The bias. I know I know I know that they cover as fairly as they possibly can but they obviously skew toward one political mindset. How could they not, they are PUBLIC radio after all. And I know that when I listen to them, just like I know that Fox skews the other way if I ever listen to them. I hate that. Isn't news supposed to be unbiased, even handed, no sides to take? Its what I learned in journalism class at least.

But, with all the other stuff going on in the world it becomes an issue that doesn't really matter because the only person that will feel the need to view the world in an unbiased opinion will make an effort to begin that way in how they take in information and how they transmit their interpretation of it. Eventually we will all fall victims to our own preferences and its our priviledge as Americans in a free speech no big brother country. Maybe I feel that way because I don't feel that my view of the world is being fairly balanced. I wouldn't notice it if I was a Democrat. And were I a Republican who watched Fox, I wouldn't notice the bias there either. I'd be blinded because I was being well fed, a prisoner doesn't care what the meal is as long as it keeps him alive.

Ah what the hell, I'm gonna keep listening to NPR because I really like their stories and their desire to inform and involve their audience. But maybe one day I'll watch Fox too.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

un año

Mi husband and I celebrated our first year of marriage on Monday the 22nd. 

In honor of the occasion, we headed to the Happiest Place on Earth for dinner at the Blue Bayou. It sure was a challenge ordering since the only thing we could eat on the menu was the portabello mushroom with pepper and corn couscous and Matt doesn't like any of those things. Thankfully the waitress knew her stuff and they made him a pasta with marinara sauce. It reminded us of just one of the things we've been challenged with our first year of marriage, a total diet change.

Along with combining our finances and living together, seeing each other through sickness and health, the first year of marriage has been really easy and really great. I love him more today than a year ago... but not as much as the years from now...

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

red

Sometimes my job has unexpected perks. For example, when the art department has to buy and paint six chairs red and can't return them to the place where they were purchased, they must be either sold or given away to someone. This is how I came upon six West Elm chairs for $0. I figured I'd buy this cheap table from Ikea and ta-da, totally new dining area. More images to come.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

The fitness goal is being challenged by delicious craft service cheese and goodies. Must resist temptation. A friend and I went to our first actual yoga class last Saturday which unfortunately I must miss this weekend because of work. Boo.

Matthew, in his brilliant attempt to avoid having to get a new TV stand, suggested switching our coffee table into the TV stand, making our current TV stand a side table and purchasing a cheap coffee table at Target. It actually looks pretty good though much like a shrine to video gaming with the wii, sega genesis, and classic nintendo now on display (add to that a playstation 3 in a few months...) but it makes the TV look bigger, and what man or woman can say that's a bad thing? The cheap coffee table looks just what it is, cheap. I want to put a yellow patterened rug underneath it to distract from the cheap. I'm very excited that it is likely I will score some cool dining chairs for free, which means I'll be buying a new dining table to match with the new chairs and doing something with the dining area which I am not a fan of either. I want these two things from Target: 1) a cuckoo clock 2) a ceramic horse.

I'd be lying if I said those were the only two things in my head. I've been thinking about women in the bible, women in politics, this election year, and the country I love and what will bring us together.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

curveball

What to do, what to think. I've been thrown. The GOP party, that I am not a part of, chose a female as their vice presidential candidate. Or more particularly, John McCain (he who is scary) chose a woman as a vice presidential candidate. At first I thought, who's that? Then I thought, Obama should have picked Hillary. Seriously, I mean, 18 million people voted for her she was almost too obvious of a choice. Instead he picked experience for balance, okay. And now, the "experienced" half chose a novice just two years into her job as Alaskan governor.

Unfortunately I never warmed to Mrs. Clinton. I was glad for what she was doing for women in politics but she just didn't inspire me. I don't know if Obama has rallied the black community directly appealing to their brotherhood to see if they can back a brother and I don't know to what extent Hillary rallied the ladies and though it was historic that she ran almost to the bitter end, dang it I hate that she never made me believe. Because of all the roles I play in life, that of woman is one of the most important and heartfelt roles I play, the one that brings out the most firey defenses of it, that of the most intense internal questions. I want to see another woman run for president, I want to see yet another woman leading the State Department, winning mayoral elections, senate seats, even city council seats. And any woman that gets to the top of these places is a hero, honest. Don't tell me its easy to do such a thing. Some make it look very easy, some make it up there with such vigor that you become gender blind and that's cool too. So hats off to Hillary for doing so and all the other women like Pelosi, Boxer, Feinstein, Albright, Rice, and now... Palin.

What every OTHER other president of the United States has been besides white, less we forget, is male. Freed slaves were given the right to vote in 1870. Women were given the right to vote in 1920. Mothereffing 50 years after slaves were. And correct me if I'm wrong but sistas were a part of the United States since the beginning, coming over on boats, birthing babies and whatnot, keeping the population going so uh, what the deuce? This election now has people who either had the right to vote either 138 years go or 88 years ago. Pretty dang exciting to think of where their predecessors were and where they are now.

And I mention this all on the scale of historic-ness (if that is a word). I'm not gonna argue if it was a stunt, who's the worse to be in a position with the least experience, who I'm gonna vote for, I'm just mentioning it for the purest sake of saying wow, a black man of mixed heritage, a white woman with five kids. You bet your darndest America woke the crap up and the debates over this woman and that man are so hot it makes me happy that we care so much about our country that this is one election we are not just gonna wait 'til it passes. We will participate, we will at least think about it.

And I leave you this quote from a wise man. "Normally, when you see a black man or a woman president an asteroid is about to hit the Statue of Liberty. How will we know it's the future? Silver unitards, that can't be all?"

Welcome to the future.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

bubbles in maywood

"What's your favorite childhood memory?" Ab asked me as we sped away from our family after a good long day, on the 710 freeway. I knew the answer right away because its something that I've thought about over the years, narrowing it down amongst the cobwebs of my 26 year old mind.

"Well," and I explained, "and I've thought about this so, that's why I'm saying it so soon, this one time, you and I went to the liquor store and we bought these bubbles.." "The BUBBLES!" my brother exclaimed, "That's my favorite memory too!"

There was a tiny liquor store on Everett in Maywood in between 54th and 55th St where one day, my brother and I on our way home from school picked up two bottles of liquid bubble solution. The kind with the wand in the bottle. We took it home and proceeded to blow bubbles everywhere. Soon the rest of our building caught on. Kids everywhere were bringing out their liquid bubble solution, getting more and more high tech with each blow. Some were running with the wands, others brought out fans that they held their wands to. By the time the sun had set, about 10-15 kids were blowing bubbles outside. By then I'd gone inside, possibly bored of bubbles and went outside again. When I opened the door, I looked up and the atmosphere on 52nd St was illumiated with the glistening soap of bubble solution. I knew at that instant what something beautiful in the midst of ugliness was and that memory has stayed with me ever since.

"My second favorite memory," my brother began, "would have to be the time we killed the rat." "I was just going to say if I had to have a second favorite memory it would be the time all five of us killed that mouse." I enthusiastically agreed.

Mom worked long hours (possibly just normal eight hour shifts but when we were kids that was an eternity) and we were home alone a lot. There wasn't much we could do to entertain each other, though that never stopped the girls from inventing hilarious games like "Jerry Springer" and "Headless Horseman" (another story for another time).

During this time our two bedroom apartment had become home to an unwelcome guest, a mouse. We'd set traps for him but he was still alive, as evidenced by the tails we'd see running by every now and again. My brother, never one to let his family be infiltrated by an unwelcome outsider decided that day we would all kill it, together. "There it goes!" we'd yell and we'd move couches, coffee tables, dinner tables, bookcases, until finally, we had the mouse localized. It made the fatal mistake of running across the living room and on it fell a black, silver, and pink throw pillow and on top of it, five pairs of sibling feet. We fell upon the pillow with such gusto that you would have thought we'd given each other a "NOW!" war cry. We jumped up on that pillow/mouse laughing and giggling that it didn't really matter that it ended up getting away after all.

"Let's go to the old apartments!" Ab decided as we continued north on the 710, passing the freeways that would take us into Orange County where we now live. "Okay!" I agreed. And my brain was flooded with memories that Ab and I would bring up together, remember when, oh this one time, oh hey, remember, and pretty soon the exit was upon us. "Want me to take the Julio route?" he asked me, harping back to our former step-father's shortcut home. The route that took us past all the factories we would pass on our bikes, the bread factory where once an employee gave us a box of bread to take home, the dumpsters where we once found a film strip with porn on it, the General Mills factory. As we took a left onto 52nd St from Maywood Ave we were hit with an all familiar and all too unfamiliar street. We both knew the old place when we came upon it. It was even painted the same, white with brown borders. "I'm gonna drive in, just for a second," Ab decided as he pulled mine and my husband's Corolla into the narrow entrance that takes you into the parking lot of the old place. Wow.

It shrunk.

I used to race a girl named Mirella back and forth from one half of the building to the other. I was the fastest person there until she came and took the crown from me. She and I would race so much and the distance between the parking stop and the concrete wall that was home felt like an eternity. Now I could take about ten long strides and get to the other side. It was tiny. Or maybe it was I that had grown.

The next place was on 54th street. The one where we were only one of four families and where our memories were mixed with half happy and half sad ones. We approached the place with two wary homeowners giving us the evil eye. "Good evening, we used to live here, when we were kids, about fifteen years ago!" Their eyes shifted into that of acceptance. "Can we walk to the back just to look around?" Their arms led the way, go ahead kids. So we walked to the back and found ourselves in the backyard where we'd build stuff in the garage. Where we'd play football. Where we rollerskated. Where we'd play Monopoly with Lucero, Zeus, and Nancy.

We made a full circle around Loma Vista Elementary. It was from there that my love of learning and Mac computers came. I gleefully pointed out the mac lab to Ab. We nodded enthusiastically to every reminiscence that came out of our mouths.

Nimitz Middle school was just as big as we remembered, though the gates were much thicker than when we were there. Its funny that as ghetto as all the places we had been to so far has been, we did used to live there and it was all familiar, it was once our home and would forever be a part of our lives. Middle school is scary no matter what but I looked at it braver than ever. There was the meeting place for Gracie, Erika, and Maria and I some mornings before school started. We met in a corner. By a bar meant for parking bikes perhaps that we used as a gymnast bar and we'd do flips and turns and backflips on. I sent the picture to Gracie to see if she could remember the place we always refer to as "The Bar."

Bell High school was closest to current events but still, it had been eight years since we'd set foot in it. Set foot in because Ab found that the gate by the tennis courts was open and we strolled the campus where we became adults. There's the sex ed classroom where I was assigned a mechanical baby to work as birth control. There's the room where we took math. There's the.. GASP! "My name is written on the wall!" I remembered and broke into a light jog. There under the Class of 2000 logo was the names of the girls who had painted it. My maiden name now my middle name. For years to come on the walls of Bell High.

Cudahy was next and we both agreed to skip out on a trip to Elizabeth School because it was the darkest chapter of our education. I hated that school. Ab hated that school. Neither of us gave reasons but we didn't need to, if you hate a place that much, there is no need to go back. "What two stops?" Ab asked when I said we'd have to make two in Cudahy. "The place on Walker Ave. Did you forget?" "Oh yeah! That's where we killed the mouse!" Yup. The street itself reminded me of something out of training day so I hesitated to even so much as slow down when we got to the end of the little cul de sac and the last apartment on the right that had been our home. Around the corner past the house where a lady used to plant rice and was now apartment homes you came to Elizabeth St and the two apartments that were right next to each other and where we moved three times. The crappy apartment had the best apartment. The one with three bedrooms where Ab finally had his own room. The one that was directly over my pal Jose's room and we'd call each other and make faces through the window. Then the apartment next door that was much nicer and where we moved twice. The second time we moved I'd packed boxes I would not unpack until I would arrive at Hart Hall 249 at Biola University.

For a second on the way back, Ab completely forgot where he lived. I almost did too after that stroll down memory lane. It took us about fourteen years to make those memories and about forty five minutes to relive them. And though we moved a mere 17 miles away to La Habra, it might as well have been 17,000 it feels so faraway.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

roll up

There's this pilates move the girl on my DVD calls a roll up. Basically you lay flat on the floor and pull yourself all the way up using your abs. I used to be able to do one and then when I started doing that video again I wasn't able to. Tonight after a little workout I got on the floor of the workout room and up I went, over and over again. It didn't hurt that I was listening to Dropkick Murphys and imagining I was a male prisoner undercover cop doing sit ups.

Why I'm trying to get fit:
1) Because I want to look awesome in my tight clothes
2) Because my mother was diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes and since that stuff is hereditary, I want to nip it in the bud/butt/kick its ass
3) Because I don't want to be fat at my friend's wedding next year when I run into people I used to know and haven't seen me in years. "Hey, what have you been up to?" "Oh, working in commercials, got married, ate lots of cupcakes...is that my ex? Crap."
4) Because I have an important man that lives with me and finds me sexy anyway and I want him to be right

twenty eight

I am of the belief that fall begins around late September. Someone around our office is of the belief that it is already fall because she is sporting all the trends. Whoa whoa girl, its still freaking 90 degrees outside! I've been stocking up on fall clothing myself but I ain't wearing it. That argyle sweater and purple turtleneck are hanging in my closet with no intention of being used anytime soon. I also purchased my second pair of those trendy skinny jeans in the hopes of pulling them off soon. I've been a 28 for as long as I remember so I grabbed 28 & 30 size jeans and to my delight, I still am a 28. Of course a few years ago a gut didn't stick out but we're taking care of that crap.

Fall wishlist: flat tall boots, large owl necklace, & patterned thick tights. Clothes are my motivator.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

sweat

I've begun trying to fit into my jeans and tight shirts again. Here is an image of me looking bad ass after a sweaty run. Research has been conducted and the result is that during the first year of marriage most couples gain some amount of weight. This is what I blame the gut on, that and the temptation island that is working in a place where every snack, dessert, and coffee beverage is on the house. Now I'm on the drinking excessive amounts of water and attempting to resist all the sugary stuff placed before me.

Apparently blogs are good places to stay accountable to weight stuff so I will update you guys on my progress including maybe before and after images. If you're unlucky.

I'm also trying to find a nice TV stand for our living room since I decided to forgo purchasing the iPhone in exchange for allotting that amount to buying stuff to pretty our apartment. The other reason for not purchasing the device that I've wanted for 5 years before it even existed is because the plan for said phone is so ridiculously expensive that it would cost us about $360 a year more and I'd rather like, eat, watch movies, and decorate my home.

Those are the only two things going in my brain.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

jeans

Nothing makes a woman feel fatter and uglier than a visit to a dressing room or the instant images of a digital camera. You can't deny what that digital camera tells you, buddy, you are no longer as thin as you used to be.

I was lucky once upon a time from the age of 0-18 when my metabolism shredded any extra fat and I gained no additional weight aside from the normal stuff you gain to grow. Sophmore year of college I gained about 20 pounds, something that made me cry everytime I put on a pair of jeans on my way out the door. The button wouldn't close and aside from having horrible taste in jeans since the jeans of the time were nothing to be proud of, I was stuck with a wrestling match of trying to fit myself into denim. The agony.

Luckily, grew into the body that had grown and then was ok. Then I turned 25 and everything quit working the way it used to. I had to get a crown for a tooth, go to the chiropractor to get aligned for a hip that had gone out of alignment and go through some other crap but the worst of all has been the fact that somehow I still almost cry whenever I go into a dressing room to try on some new jeans.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Who doesn't like Ikea? Get out. About 80% of my apartment is furnished with Ikea. Everything except two bookcases from Target, a couch & two armchairs from Matt's parents,furniture. and the dining table & chairs are non-Ikea. Recently I bought a folding chair there and then on my daily dose of design blog reading, I found this fun time waster: type your name and it gives you a furniture and a new name. Here's mine... http://www.blogadilla.com/2008/05/11/the-blogadilla-swedish-furniture-name-generator/

Thursday, July 24, 2008

adopt

For some reason I am really happy for people when they adopt a pet. Almost moreso than when someone has a baby. If I knew someone who adopted a baby, I'd probably be really really happy for them. I don't think it has to do with the human vs. animal thing but the adoption. The fact that it came into the world unwanted and a home was found. A family came into being for someone who needed one and might otherwise have died. I like looking at LJ and seeing him thrive or put his paws on my shoulder when he wants a lift because I know he was an orphan and we adopted him.

After I'd accidentally killed a stray cat with my car and was hysterically crying, Matt made me a promise that all our pets would be adopted. It still didn't stop me from crying, but it did make me feel better. And Gadget, who seemed to sense that I was upset, snuggled with me that night almost as if he knew that I needed a little forgiveness and he gave it to me because I gave him a good home.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

ain't no cure

I haven't had much of a summer yet. Summer is my favorite season, my favorite state of mind. It is California Dreamin' on winter's days and I'm stuck in an air conditioned office.

I'm a gonna raise a fuss
I'm a gonna raise a holler
about a workin' all summer
just to try to earn a dollar

ev'ry time I call my Baby
try to get a date
my boss says
No dice, son, you gotta work late.

Sometimes I wonder what I'm a gonna do
but there ain't no cure for the Summertime Blues

Sunday, July 6, 2008

intelligence and division

Why does it seem that those that possess some vast quantity of intelligence, whether it be a general sort of intelligence or a more localized one, feel the need to alienate those that are lacking of it? Why do smart people like to make other people feel stupid?

At the Griffith Observatory with my family we were able to view through a telescope, the planet of Saturn. And with our own eyes, we saw a man that was either a certified astronomy professional, or one who fancied himself one. My brother after two wise cracks, asked a few legitimate questions and the guy went off on a rant that no one but fellow astronomy enthusiasts would fully comprehend. He went off on the status of Pluto as a planet and why it qualified as one using astronomical terms (in this case both large and relating to the science of astronomy) that no one in our group really could respond to besides with a blank stare.

Instantly I thought him a douchebag. One that doesn't know he is one, which is the saddest kind. Sad because there are fewer intelligent people that don't hold their intelligence over another person and use it to unite people instead of creating divisions, which is just what this shmo had done. He had created a division between us and himself, between us appreciating what was happening in the astronomical world, and us not giving a crap and complaining about the parking. Could you dumb it down a shade my friend? We are not as versed in the study and recent debates as to the planetary status of Pluto and couldn't you tell that by our faces, aren't you taught to assume that when presenting information to the general public?

We came to this place to learn right? To be reminded of how very small we are in the universe.

Intelligence and knowledge can create divisions or they can bring people together. When we begin spewing facts and statistics to those in our party that obviously aren't capable of reciprocating likewise then why are we doing it? Just to make ourselves sound intelligent? Better? And to what purpose? We're just growing further and further away. Best to try to out-smart each other with nerdish facts and stats in the comfort of whatever monthly or bi-weekly gathering in person or cyberspace that you and those like you can do without dumbing down your everyday human. Think of the last great debate and conversation you had in a group setting and what made it more lively was when everyone got to contribute because it was a subject that everyone could relate to. It isn't about hearing the two loud-mouthed wise-asses in your group out voice the quiet people in your group on a debate that really doesn't matter except in their minds. You may feel that you got something off your chest, but they might feel that it was at the cost of their time. Because it is THEIR time too, not just yours so you can spout out whatever thing you think is important. Maybe that person went on a trip that is of interest, maybe their family is going through something rough, heck, maybe even that person himself is going through something and he just wants to be heard. But you can't hear over the sound of your voice. And that's just sad.

So the conversation could either keep going in opposite directions, with one of you scratching his head and the other puffing out his chest, or you can be like this guy I heard of in the Bible I think his name was Pablo or something, who became like them, with the hopes that he could get close to them and give them some good news, tell them this really good story about a man and a cross.

Thursday, July 3, 2008

simplicity

Earlier this week I contemplated writing a blog about Wall-E's philosophy on too much stuff and consumerism overall. Today at work I had to move some people's cars and you learn a lot about a person by driving their car or even just stepping into their car. 

One car outright smelled foul and I know the man who owns it has a wife and children and is probably too busy to clean out that car that had bags, shoes, clothes, papers, everywhere in it. Another car owner had about 10 keys and two of those keychain cards on it. 

In my car, there is a coffee tumbler (I have a practice of not allowing myself to get some to go coffee unless I have a to-go cup with me so I always have one, sometimes two) and a piece of paper that tells people at the parking place where I work and that I can indeed legally park there and in the back seat there is a blanket in case of an impromptu picnic. On my keyring, there is a car key, a gate/pool key for my complex, and a house key. 

So even though I feel like maybe I should work on simplifying my life it seems like my heart and car are starting to head in the right direction.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

priceless

It began quite innocently with the gift of a wii game system. From there, I learned about what the game of golf is all about and why people have loved it for so many years. It isn't just hitting and hitting, there are specific tools to use and requires a precise use of strength. 

Father's Day with my Plank family was spent watching Round 3 of the USGA Open. That's right, I spent my Saturday sitting around the TV with my father/uncle/cousin/grandfather in-law and beloved husband watching men play golf. 

And it was incredible. A few of us rooted for Rocco Mediate but what can one do but marvel at the machine that is Tiger Woods. He had a rough few holes but he made some incredible shots that just boggle the mind. How can he do that so well so consistently? 

I spent the morning talking about the game. Once you start mentioning golf, people get into it when they're into it. Golfers started talking and we watched the game in the motorhome all the way to the end. All the way to Tiger once again making that HAVETOMAKEITTOTAKETHELEAD shot to cheers in our little mobile office. WOW. 

During the commercial breaks, there came from 
Mastercard a commercial that made me dream a little... it was about a woman golfer who makes an amazing hole and then throws herself into the hobby. Buying cool pink golf bags, golfing outfits, taking lessons, and 
celebrating when she'd get good hits. It lifted my spirits. Watch for yourself and roar a little inside.

http://www.lpga.com/content/video/MC_greatlady_320x240.wvx

The Lakers are playing now... miracles happen right?

Friday, June 6, 2008

can't sleep

Other blogs I read have pictures. I don't. Here's some pictures of stuff I baked recently:

Sunday. This cherry pie was difficult to accomplish because pitting cherries sucks and takes a long time. Thank goodness for the internet because women had tips on how to pit cherries if you don't have a cherry pitter tool. Use a straw to poke the pit out and your run of the mill straw won't work, it falls apart quickly. I have a ice-blended straw from Coffee Bean that's made to last a long time and it worked fine. The filling tasted great (how could it not? its cherries and sugar) but the crust tastes like crud. Undercooked or something, I dunno. 

This piece of lemon/limey goodness was from a recipe that I got off BH&G Magazine that I got from Matt's grandma. She'd finished reading it and I really wanted to try to cover recipe. Voila. I'm not a big lemon bar fan in general but I am a big fan of lemons and these little bars make the place smell great. I sent Matt's mom a picture and she was really impressed and I'm gonna make it again for the family. Though the bars on the edge tasted fantastic, the middle part needed more time even though I shot for more minutes than the recipe said it needed. I think its my oven.


So those are some pictures. Don't say I'm devoid of color now. 

Oh and this is not a cooking blog. This is a blog of me and me has had a lot of free time... not next week though. 

Thursday, May 29, 2008

what came first?

The book or the blog. There's a big trend to have women start blogs and write books. Or write books and then blogs. Or write columns, that become books, that become a TV show, that becomes a movie. EF yes, I can't wait to see Sex & the City: The Movie. From whence good human observations from a female point of view first gave fruit as great TV, great living.

I'm reading Julie & Julia which is a book that began as a blog as far back as 2002 children if we believe that blogs go that far back. I wonder who began the first blog... oh, hi wikipedia. Anyway I didn't read the book and I stumbled across the blog through, heck I dunno how and I only read the first page of the blog and was ho-hum but the book is pretty enjoyable so far. Nothing like a woman who hates her job and apartment and loves everything else despite her refusal to admit that. Cynical, bitter, self-loving, hilarious.

What is it about her problems that make them seem legitimate, like any other American middle-class problem? I wrote in my journal yesterday that my life was dull and I was okay with that repeatedly because I watched a movie in which a man made a comment about Americans and their boring lives in a way that made me believe that dude had serious problems and we're just a bunch of whiners. In fact I think the movie was Blackhawk Down which takes place in SOMALIA, wikipedia that place and fall on your knees and thank God you don't live there. This girl's problems are that she hates her job. Of course, in America when we hate our job its the one springboard we have to begin to question our purpose in life and that getting a better one would in turn get us a better life. BAH! Tell that to the kid that sells chicklets near the border and goes home to insert depressing home description here. But what am I telling you for? You'll think for a second oh yeah, we have it so good but then you'll forget and go on to complain about your DSL or the price of gas. Wait, you have a car asks the guy in Somalia while he limps with the one leg he has to the corner to beg for alms.

Why did I go off on that? Anyyyywwaaayyy.... the book's a good read for me because my mom makes fun of me for making meals using cookbooks. "Evelyn, she cooks with cookbooks" she says to whoever is visiting or whoever is not. My mother doesn't measure ANYTHING, heck I don't think she owns a measuring cup. She just throws ingredients here and there and ta-da, a meal. Its sort of silly to think that just by making recipes from a book would teach you to cook right? As if reading a book about piano tunes with sheet music would teach you to play piano. But it does darn it, cooking is great that way. The more you do, the more instinctive other things related to a recipe you once made become. I've learned very much about eggs and egg whites just by making black and white angel food cake five times now. YES, FIVE. Because if you have any sorts of smarts and thankfully I do, whew, you start building on the basics you've learned. Wait, that one recipe that sauteed the green beans worked, why not.... so if she goes through an entire book written by Julia Child, then by gum, I bet she could make stuff that isn't lobster. UGH, reading that section reminded me of why I am a vegetarian, ick.

As a bridal shower present Alexa gave me the 'Barefoot Contessa at Home' cookbook. As of today I've made 8 things out of that book, most of them more than once. I've made two things out of Wolfgang Puck's book, and one thing out of the vegetarian cookbook. For me, that's impressive because I'm all talk and no action. Speaking of action!, the book is being made into a movie starring my favorite young actress Amy Adams and everyone's favorite devil Meryl Streep.

Effin' A. Way to blog baby.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

comida-licous

There aren't many conversations that pick me up more than when people talk about food and restaurants. Our family glowed about some Polish restaurant in Eagle Rock and I had to bring up my recent food expeditions.

Osteria Mozza is apparently one of the hottest restaurants in town with a one month waiting list. Anything that popular is not to be trusted because if anything, people in Los Angeles are sheep so bah! Everyone who ate with me chose food they loved. I had to order twice because I forgot to tell my waitress that I was a vegetarian so when they brought me the goat cheese ravioli, it just wasn't right. Before that though, wow. Onto the table we sampled gleaming white magnificence that they informed us was mozzarella. I always thought that mozzarella was the lesser of the magic that is cheese but I guess I'd just never had it when it had been done right and my friends, this was done right. The texture was just perfect. The wine carafe thing is quite a good idea because really, people usually drink wine in twos.

And then there was Ford's Filling Station in Culver City. Magnificent. The waiter we had was show-offy knowledgeable and he led us all down the right path. I had polenta which normally doesn't sound likes something that would interest me but it was so tasty with the sides of vegetables. For starters we'd had their famous flatbread and garlic bread that was perfect because its so loaded with garlic and olive oil and honestly, that makes garlic bread. It was an after work dinner that seemed just like the perfect kind of place for it. That or a double date. Its really a terrific place. Classy. Delicious. Not scenester-y. Yummy.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

the little void

I wish I could go back in time to when I first graduated from Biola. I'd like to erase a great many things that happened around then but one that really sticks out is that at a time when I was working like crazy, earning decent money and paying only $400 a month for rent, and had little other expenses, I wish I could have handled my finances better.

Everyday on the radio I hear about how hard it is for people to make ends meet. The economy in a "recession". The high cost of living, the cost of gasoline, the high price of food. Its tough out there for the middle class man/woman. One side of my family is having a hard time with it and the other is not. My little family of three males and me (the cats are our dependents even though I can't claim them, speaking of that would kind of be cool, if you adopt an animal from a shelter you can claim the cost of feeding it and keeping it alive on your taxes, man, animals would be flying out of the shelters, or at least you know, walking out of the shelters) is thankfully not a statistic that can be crammed into that area because well, Matt had a good example of financial management growing up and I gave up control over handling our money to him. It was a good idea. Aside from steps we took to save money like how we grocery shop at fresh & easy which is way cheaper than a lot of places and rarely eat out, we switched cars so that I drive the fuel efficient one furthest (which literally saved us 100s of dollars a month), and we wait until we've earned rewards points on our credit card so we can buy things we want on amazon.com.

Still, there is this crazy desire in me to go shopping. I just want to spend money I don't have on stuff I don't need. Its this insane little void you want to just fill with STUFF. Like just quit buying stuff EvY, you don't need that wine rack for the shelves, or the pasta cutter, or the vinegar and wine bottles. Still though, the three cute flats I bought online that were mailed, man, were they worth it to my self-esteem.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

dang i love california

sucks to be allergic to gluten, or so i'm learning by browsing on the blogsite of this girl who is allergic to it gluten. she's married to some superman that is a chef and pregnant with his child. she wrote a very long blog about how amazing he is and how they got married, etc. etc. anyway, with my sarcastic bitter phase still in effect i grew more and more pissed at the stupid girls who wrote such encouraging comments. such butt kissing comments. do they have to be encouraging and positive? can't they just be benign? can't they just be questions about the recipe? or in my case, massive gloating about the fact that we live in california and there's hardly such a thing as a fruit out of season. hell i have three little baskets of strawberries in the fridge right now. i wonder what i can make with them tomorrow. i love living in california.

my comment would have been along the lines of "ha ha sucks to be you, you don't live in the best state in america." but then i would make someone cry and that ain't my style.

speaking of food. judging from lynner's skeptic remark this afternoon when i told her that i was a vegetarian now and she said, "we'll see how long that lasts" i guess it could be expected that i of all people would be flaky about something like that because well lynners has watched me eat over the past 8 years we've known each other (eight, ohmygosh, how did that happen?) and seen me say and not do. if i would have been in a different state of mind than i am now and with the eating habits i had then when i ate nothing, i would have said i couldn't and wouldn't stick with it. well since i was able to commit to one man and two cats, i figured that was a good bounce board for doing and not just saying. the transition to the new foodstyle has been really easy for me because it was almost like i'd been preparing for it for the past few months. i never ate fish, i hate any and all seafood no exceptions. after seeing too many cute lambs i swore off lamb chops. matt doesn't like pork so we cut that out. red meat was making me ill. so that left turkey and chicken. in fact, it had become an added effort to add meat to a meal. i'd look at the shopping cart and i had all the ingredients but so i'd have to head to the deli.

the one part that's been a very conscious effort has been when we eat out. and if any one of you ever become vegetarians you'll notice that it really is a wide awake look at food. i would assume it would be like if you were allergic to a food because you have to make sure that ingredient isn't there. so you have to start asking questions like, does this minestrone have meat in it? do you have tofu pad thai? you don't just grab stuff and assume you can eat it, you look at labels, you think of sides to go with it, its not just passive consumerism. and aside from various other reasons why i became a vegetarian, that was the one i was most interested in.

another reason why i love california is the fact that it is very easy to be a vegetarian in this day and age and state. and companies like amy's kitchen are even in wal-marts so even in new mexico, we were fine.

its been four weeks now. its been really easy for me. i think this thing is gonna stick.

Friday, April 11, 2008

before you hear it elsewhere

Matt & I are going to New Mexico to see his sister and her husband and his family. We're driving there Saturday and driving back on Thursday. We hope to hang out and see Carlsbad Caverns & White Sands National Monument.

Its been now a full week since Matt and I have become vegetarians. I think I'm gonna stick with it. Can't speak for Matt though he seems determined to. It hasn't felt very different from before and it may be in my head, but I feel extra good health-wise lately. I've had to break the news to my Mexican mother who thinks its weird and my brother who thinks my listening to NPR is brainwashing me, and Matt's family because they were gonna feed us meat. I've been answering the question of "Why?" a lot.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

show off

My self-esteem is tied up in some parts to my home. When I have guests, I want them to pay me compliments because I made a great deal of effort to hide the PJs and the garbage so when they walk in the door, the place looks so neat that they'll pay up.

Having a home to be proud of is tied into two elements. One is my desire to stay put because growing up my mom moved us around a lot. Two is well, I dunno if anyone knows this but I'm a woman and women tend to do this thing that people refer to as "nesting". Like the animal for which this behavior is named, its a little bit repetitive, cyclical you might say. Around and around we go. A little feather here, a little twig there, a little moss out, a little moss in. Pruning away with our hands and arms and heart the place we call home. My mom used to do it and it drove me crazy and then I realized that I did the same thing. She would rearrange the furniture, the frames, the beds, the covers, the towels. I couldn't understand why a person just couldn't be happy with the way things were and had to keep changing it and then I found myself in the same situation. Ambre noticed it too and called me out on it. Was my face red. Oh crap, I am my mother.

But since all or a majority of women do this, it can instead be said that well, women do this so I'm not my mother, I'm just a woman. And if you have an inkling of a creative side, this process never stops, much to the dismay of the husbands. There's this blog by a woman in Chicago who posts pictures of her projects and whose home was featured on the popular Apartment Therapy Home Tour. Perhaps the Pulitzer Prize of Nesting Achievement. The website is hugely popular with wannabe interior designers and the stuff they come up with is impressive and I visit it almost daily. Anyway, this Chicago woman, what other reason would she have to show us her home but to show off, right?

Which is also what blogs and MySpace and Facebook seem to foster. Showing off. No one posts pictures of themselves when they're half ugly or full ugly. They post pictures when they look hot, when they got married, when they had a baby, when they won an award, when they met a celebrity. I'm particularly surprised when girls I thought differently of post pictures of themselves in these outfits that are out of the norm for them. Boobies hanging out, short skirts, tight ass jeans. Guys have pictures of themselves with their cars, their bikes, their collections. And all of us have pictures of trips we took. Look at me, I went somewhere. Look at me, I have tits, bet you didn't know that.

But dammit, its what we want. I don't wanna stalk people and be lacking of information. I wanna know everything. Where you went, why you went, who you're going out with, where you live, what you do. I'm not actually going to call you and try to hang out with you, that's in the past. I want to know all the chisme, all the controversy and then compare it to my life and see how I feel after. Usually pretty good. Or sometimes very jealous (dammit Andy Barron and Andy Cervantes, why are you guys always going somewhere cool?).

Sometimes I use it as a research tool before I actually call someone. I like to stalk Ambre & Michelle's profile in case there was a key event I forgot about or missed that way when I see them I can get a full picture of what happened. And since I never see Man-D I stalk hers because she's a legitimately busy lady and I don't even want to attempt to steal time away from her doctor prep.

I maintain two blogs that spew basic verbal diahrrea. Sometimes they're insightful and hilarious. Other times they're trite, cliché, and boring. But I can't stop. I don't want to. How else can you get instant feedback on your writing and a justification of stuff you're thinking about? And though I have no qualms in letting you know just what I'm thinking and what I think of myself I'm not really trying to accomplish anything or change any minds. Its blah, its just words, just talking, just thinking. And just your basic showing off. Look at me, I can use analogies and alliteration.

I need an avalanche of aspirin. That EvY, what a show off.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

prisoner of war

It was guy night at the Fredrich household. Guy Night that will hereafter be referred to as "Game Night" because somehow I get stuck home on those nights and don't want to feel like the lame wife that sticks around making the guys feel uncomfortable. But please, not with this crowd. First of all I made brownies to bribe my presence (the way Matt brought us popsicles to bribe his presence on girl time) and secondly, its video game night so the talk in the room won't be anything I shouldn't hear, its just stuff I really don't want to hear and stuff I won't understand. Geeky nerd talk. 

So I was a prisoner in my own home. Once it was in my mind that I shouldn't be here, I couldn't get out of my head this feeling that I should be invisible. Well the dang brownies took awhile to make and then I went into the room to begin an even nerdier project that I don't care to discuss I pondered my sentence and plotted my escape. 

Ah who cares, I got bored. I sat in our room and I clicked around online for things I want to buy that I can't and I went into the living room to watch them play the Wario game that has those sexy descriptions of how the games are supposed to be played and oh jeebus I wish I could find a youtube video clip of that. They left a few minutes later and Matt & I watched The West Wing.

On Sunday Dad, Ab, Matt, & I watched "The Great Escape". The trio of natural family had earlier gone to have lunch and then visit Fry's for a cable Matt and I wanted to play our laptop videos onto the TV without buying an Apple TV (okay, who's a geek now that went for the sole reason of getting it, yes, me) and of course fell victim to the cheap DVDs and a movie for us to watch that day. 

What a fine performance by Richard Attenborough and what a reminder that though Steve McQueen may be the only blond man I'll ever love that died before I met him, he can be (in the words of Nacho) a real douche. I mean honestly, who makes people write him a scene so he can show off motorcycling skills? (Who throws a shoe, I mean honestly?!) And THEN doesn't have the balls to do the major stunt? How could Ali McGraw have left Evans for this schmuck? 

I can't believe that is based on a true story. What a story. War brings out incredible feats in people and cooperation really makes it happen. Does it only take a good leader to make a free man out of a prisoner? Or is our constant desire to escape our salvation?

The scene where the German guy says "Good Luck" freaking kills me. And the scene at the French Cafe made me shout "Vive Le France!" 

I learned that Matt thinks my British accent is terrible. I can live with that. And he'll have to live with my continually doing it because I have to live with his attempting to do a Mexican one.

I'm Free. 

I'm Free.